Everyone will get to a point in life where they feel overwhelmed and under-equipped. It doesn’t matter what your IQ is or how much formal education you have acquired; that’s the way God has designed life to be. Your destiny is always larger than you and at some point; you will come under extreme internal pressure due to the sheer size of the assignment, the challenges of the moment, or weariness from the journey thus far. It could be a series of events happening in rapid succession or multiple concurrent events but it will happen to everyone.
Any dream that leaves you confident in your physical strength to achieve is either not from God or you have grossly overestimated your physical abilities. Recall the burning bush experience in Exodus 3 where God tasked Moses with the assignment as a deliverer of Israel. Moses had a lot to say by way of protests and questions but his opening question indicates a feeling of insufficiency for the task. He said ‘Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and that I should bring the children of Israel out?’ He felt overwhelmed and under-equipped, and rightly so. If you have never felt inadequate, wait for it. It could also signify that you have failed to live a life of purpose thus far. You have most likely set your own objectives and not God’s assignments for you.
God’s infinite ability is however available for any task He commissions. A consciousness of this and a merger of your little strength with His awesome strength make you capable of doing anything. David the lowborn shepherd boy could not be king just as Joseph could not become Prime Minister in Egypt under normal circumstances. I often feel inadequate; not of a low self esteem but of responsible reason. A comparison between my competencies which I am conscious of and the sheer size of my dreams produces a feeling of inadequacy. It just doesn’t measure up. There is a chasm. We see a classic example in this text:
14 I am not able to bear all these people alone, because the burden is too heavy for me. 15 If You treat me like this, please kill me here and now—if I have found favor in Your sight—and do not let me see my wretchedness!” 16 So the Lord said to Moses: “Gather to Me seventy men of the elders of Israel, whom you know to be the elders of the people and officers over them; bring them to the tabernacle of meeting, that they may stand there with you.17 Then I will come down and talk with you there. I will take of the Spirit that is upon you and will put the same upon them; and they shall bear the burden of the people with you, that you may not bear it yourself alone. –Numbers 11:14-17 (NKJV)
Moses, the opening speaker in the text, was leading a group estimated at 2 million people from Egypt, a land of slavery to the Promised Land through the backwoods. Just visualize having 2 million followers; not twitter followers, but actual bodily followers on foot. He was the people’s representative before God and was God’s representative before the people – a type of Christ. Jesus represents us before the Father as an advocate and He represented the Father to us.
At this point, the people who were advanced degree holders in murmuring were complaining against Moses as was their practice. They wanted to eat meat in the wilderness and not manna; as a result they decided to stage a protest by lining up in front of their tents and raising lamentations for their meat cravings. Many people lose their minds just listening to one person nag them therefore it will not be too difficult to imagine listening to two million people whine against you at the same time. Naturally, Moses reached a breaking point and went on a rant against God. He said ‘Lord, this responsibility is too much for me to bear’ and ‘I am not able to carry this weight’. The pressure forced him to doubt his capacity. He cracked. He basically told God; ‘You wrongly assessed me by giving me this assignment. I cannot handle it’.
God’s response reveals a sacred truth to us. HE takes from the spirit that is upon Moses and shares it among 70 nominated elders. Nothing new was created. God made a withdrawal from Moses’ spiritual capacity account and made deposits in all 70 leaders and they prophesied. Moses judged based on his physical ability which we often do and reached that point where he felt overwhelmed and under-equipped.
However, Moses failed to understand that there was available capacity in the spirit he could tap into for the achievement of his purpose. Obviously, Moses had enough capacity, although not physical, mental or psychological, within him to get the job done. There is a spiritual capacity, let’s call it grace, resident within you and available for every God given assignment. To that person who is at the verge of throwing in the towel due to the challenges of the moment, be confident that you have what is required. You need to tap into the well within at times like this. You have reserves of grace and spiritual capacity you haven’t begun to tap yet. Just like Moses had it within him all along, you have what is required for the task at hand.
When God gives an assignment, HE equips for the task. According to 1 Corinthians 10:13, HE is faithful and would not allow you to be tempted more than you can bear. To conclude that you are not able is not only false but a declaration that God is unfaithful. Most importantly, it’ll just about save your life to know, i mean fully know, that the burden is not yours to carry. It has never been and would never be. You are just a vessel, not the source. God’s response to Moses at his self doubt when he was commissioned in Exodus 3:12 was the simple but powerful assurance that HE, God, would be with Moses. Moses never performed any miracles; God worked miracles through Moses. HE is the Project Sponsor and you are the Project Manager.
Moses also failed to realize that while appointing the new leaders made him feel good about sharing the burden (misery loves company), the burden remained his to carry. The people never complained against the elders going forward. They always complained against Moses. Eventually, the burden and complaints of the people pushed him over the edge and caused him to lose out on entering the land. This is not an argument against delegation. It is a case for tapping into the depths within you. Though delegation is a vital principle and practice of every successful leader, you cannot delegate leading just as organizations must never outsource their core competencies.
You ought to embrace your core and realize that inherent within you is the capacity (physical and spiritual) to subdue the obstacles of the day. You are well able. There is so much idle capacity within you. You have what is required. Leverage on God’s ability to overcome. If you can dream it, you can achieve it. Shalom!